Alhamdulillah, I have had the opportunity to learn the Quran when I was young and again as an adult but this time with focus on Tajweed. While learning, Allah(swt) granted me the grace to teach children and adults likewise who had never learnt before or just continuing with their learning with me.
Over the years, I have seen this as a special grace upon me from Allah because certain situations and circumstance just open a door for you that you never knew existed in the first place. When I started learning Tajweed in 2009, I never know I could because the situation was just not right and the circumstance was really bad but I started, putting my trust in Allah and before I knew it, I finished all of the levels with distinctions. When I started teaching in 2010, I never knew I could. But the opportunity came, I took the plunge and it became second nature, Alhamdulillah.
I am most grateful to Allah for the opportunity to learn and teach Quran and thankful to all my Teachers, I had quite a few of them and all very lovely and good Teachers. Also thankful to my students, infact they were my Teachers, who taught me to teach them.
Having taught Quran non-stop since 2010, it became a very essential part of my daily life and I enjoyed it so much for the opportunity it gave me to continually learn and improve my reading and understanding of the Quran both in the letter and spirit. Currently, I am not teaching and I really am feeling the void. It does not feel normal for me because I have changed environment and now back to my home country.
Here, where I am, people don’t really take the deen seriously. People are more interested in the worldly gains and they train their children likewise. The deen is relegated to a past- time, an after-thought or just like things we have to do because others are doing it. But this attitude differs from place to place and people to people. In a Christian dominated environment where I am, Muslims who are indigenes of this place are kind of begging to be, let alone outsiders like myself.
I observed how parents placed so much emphasis on secular education for their children above the learning of the deen. Most of these parents themselves have no knowledge of the deen, the little they have are so exaggerated to the point of annoyance, even to a Muslim. People here believe more in the outward manifestation of Islam devoid of proper understanding. Wearing hijab in an exaggerated version is regarded as the epitome of Iman here, even when these hijab wearer cannot even muster to read the smallest portion of Quran with understanding. Their manners and attitude in some cases against the Islam they are trying to portray.
I tried my best to feel at home with the people by volunteering my service to teach Quran to the local children and it was a big revelation to me.